Pride

03Sept13, early a.m.,

My rant for today is about being a proud human being.

I have lived a wonderful life because I was raised by wonderful parents with wonderful siblings. That is not to say we have not had our complications along the way.

I don’t feel like getting into specific details, but I recently had a falling out with a family member.

If you include alcohol with any camping trip, there is usually a story to tell.

I went camping with my brother. Much, much, much alcohol was involved.

There is a story to tell.

It is currently still being told, so I cannot give the conclusion at this time. The best update I can present is that I recently sent over an offering of meat, cheese, and liquor. I received a text thanking me for the offering, and promise of further communication.

Details do not matter, but sometimes with family it is easy to feel too comfortable, and thoughts best reserved for kicking a can down the street while swearing are actually shared.

Everyone has dark thoughts about the ones we love. They usually are just that: thoughts.

Sometime, however, a moment can produce a perfect storm, and every dark thought is summoned by the maelstrom of family discontent.

Small things that are of an inconsequential nature can start screaming for attention, resulting in perhaps not the greatest of action. Compounded with liquor, and there is a great movement of mental chaos.

Nothing major,  just a disagreement.

Anger and its fellow emotions often lead to regret when given the opportunity of taking the wheel.

As terrible as it may have gotten, the anger was foreign.  Family is important.

I was in the wrong, even though I was in the right.

This was a case of pride having to take the back seat.

I have no problem with pride. I think it is important. There are many things we should be proud of; however, when our pride affects how I am viewed by others, especially those close to me, I sometimes have to take a step back.

A conflict will occur when two people think they are right and have different views of the same situation with the person they are in grievance with.

It is easy to stick with your belief. You are right.

What is hard to maintain is the consequence of being “right”.

A battle that everyone loses is no victory. I think I heard that on Star Trek once.

Stepping back from a situation, and maybe not accepting guilt, but perhaps making an offering, can lead to a continuation of communication.

If the person is worth it, there is no reason to try.
I've made my effort towards fixing a wrong. Can you say the same?
I certainly hope so.

Wish me luck while I wish you luck.

Chris